I know, I know. One shouldn't step on the scale every day. I couldn't resist the temptation.
I think the Vitamin D has made a big differance. Can't wait to see what my levels are. And probably also hearing that all is well with the Dr, I had some concerns...
Lovely day, headed outside soon!!!
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Friday, March 19, 2010
220 today!!!
Dr tested me last Friday, awaiting results, for T3 T4 and TSH. Suspects thyroid and PCOS. Might finally have confirmation. Also tested my Vitamin D level.
Might see below 220 soon! Yay! What have I done differently? Quit caring. Quad and ab work every few days. Lots of time outside. MORE SLEEP which the DR thought was m main weight loss stall problem! I have been in bed by 10 sleep till 4, up till 6:30 and asleep till 10 or 10:30. Plus 30 min naps. Lots of laughing and focusing on E and playing. Consciously not stressing about house or finances.
Off to bed with me.
Might see below 220 soon! Yay! What have I done differently? Quit caring. Quad and ab work every few days. Lots of time outside. MORE SLEEP which the DR thought was m main weight loss stall problem! I have been in bed by 10 sleep till 4, up till 6:30 and asleep till 10 or 10:30. Plus 30 min naps. Lots of laughing and focusing on E and playing. Consciously not stressing about house or finances.
Off to bed with me.
Monday, March 15, 2010
Ahem
After a week of all of us with severe stomach virus, then two weeks of ear infection torture with Ellie (still going on...) I have been off plan. I have not, however, gained any weight maybe due to loss of muscle from being able to workout maybe due to lots of nursing. Went to Dr on Friday. She said that my sleep pattern is likely the culprit in my 6 month weight loss stall. She also ran a TSH and Free T3 and T4 Thyroid test just in case. I am supposed to know the results in a couple weeks.... I went off plan because I had to keep down something as I was burning 500 calories a day breastfeeding as E was so sick that was all she was eating again. Then I got rebellious and so very unhappy with the bouts of warmer shorts weather and the way my body lumps and sags... I even quit checking my bG very often! Yikes. I hate to see the A1C she just drew on Friday, my guess is around 10 again.
I realized this morning that I am unhappy. I think it is because I am not meeting the expectations for myself that I have. I need a new set because even my Bible read through every 90 days this year resoloution is, I have found, impossible. It went great for 6 weeks but I am still in the middle of Isaiah because my life as a mom and a wife does not allow me the luxury of 1 hour of reading time a day! I need to be realistic about my abilities and time when I set goals for myself. If I am not meeting goals I feel I am a failure and I start beating up on myself, feel worthless and abuse carbs and am just so GRUMPY due to the carbs and moods. And tempers are already a bit short over here as we adjust to the reality of this schedule of J's, his time and distance from work (1 hr 20min commute 1 way!), and our lack of money despite how much he is making. Our low carb grocery bill plus E's snacks and carbs are running us $120 a week on average!!! Lets not talk about gas and taxes.... so we have no enjoyment money and no savings, he is working so hard and we are still barely making it each month with no way to even pay off the student loans that come due soon! I feel so trapped and blessed at the same time. There just seems to be no break from the pressure. Esp with E ill, the antibiotic has her so wired as does her pain level that she doesnt even take naps and it is a battle to get her to sleep at night. J and I have had no alone time together for 3 weeks now not even to sit and talk or watch TV together.
So my new goals?
1. Read at least 1 chapter of Bible a day.
2. Spend time in prayer twice a day, morning and night, at least.
3. Maintain a bG average in the 90's. Besides it will help everything else!
4. Walk 10 minutes a day. E can fuss or cry if she needs to while J watches her for just those 10 minutes on treadmill.
5. NO MORE CHEATING WITH CARBS!
6. Nap when E does. I need the sleep desperately even if I have to go through a season of a messy house.
7. A clean ENOUGH house means: trash taken out, no more than 1 sink of dirty dishes, clean floors, clean towels, cloth diapers and clothes, clean bathroom, clean sheets, clean countertops and stove, horizontal clutter collected into a bin each night
8. At least first 10 minutes of Body Electric a day which gets a warm up and weights for 2 body parts
9. When playing with E, to not be thinking of other things.
10. To say something sincerely nice to J every day. And if possible to do something nice for him each day.
11. Do something nice for myself each day and find a way to love my body.
12. Drink 10 glasses of water and take my vitamins.
I realized this morning that I am unhappy. I think it is because I am not meeting the expectations for myself that I have. I need a new set because even my Bible read through every 90 days this year resoloution is, I have found, impossible. It went great for 6 weeks but I am still in the middle of Isaiah because my life as a mom and a wife does not allow me the luxury of 1 hour of reading time a day! I need to be realistic about my abilities and time when I set goals for myself. If I am not meeting goals I feel I am a failure and I start beating up on myself, feel worthless and abuse carbs and am just so GRUMPY due to the carbs and moods. And tempers are already a bit short over here as we adjust to the reality of this schedule of J's, his time and distance from work (1 hr 20min commute 1 way!), and our lack of money despite how much he is making. Our low carb grocery bill plus E's snacks and carbs are running us $120 a week on average!!! Lets not talk about gas and taxes.... so we have no enjoyment money and no savings, he is working so hard and we are still barely making it each month with no way to even pay off the student loans that come due soon! I feel so trapped and blessed at the same time. There just seems to be no break from the pressure. Esp with E ill, the antibiotic has her so wired as does her pain level that she doesnt even take naps and it is a battle to get her to sleep at night. J and I have had no alone time together for 3 weeks now not even to sit and talk or watch TV together.
So my new goals?
1. Read at least 1 chapter of Bible a day.
2. Spend time in prayer twice a day, morning and night, at least.
3. Maintain a bG average in the 90's. Besides it will help everything else!
4. Walk 10 minutes a day. E can fuss or cry if she needs to while J watches her for just those 10 minutes on treadmill.
5. NO MORE CHEATING WITH CARBS!
6. Nap when E does. I need the sleep desperately even if I have to go through a season of a messy house.
7. A clean ENOUGH house means: trash taken out, no more than 1 sink of dirty dishes, clean floors, clean towels, cloth diapers and clothes, clean bathroom, clean sheets, clean countertops and stove, horizontal clutter collected into a bin each night
8. At least first 10 minutes of Body Electric a day which gets a warm up and weights for 2 body parts
9. When playing with E, to not be thinking of other things.
10. To say something sincerely nice to J every day. And if possible to do something nice for him each day.
11. Do something nice for myself each day and find a way to love my body.
12. Drink 10 glasses of water and take my vitamins.
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