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235 lbs Today!

I am excited!

For Eliana

Lets talk briefly about what is past. Dedicated to WOE lost 50lbs or so in 4 months. Bg avg of 90. Huge reduction in Novolog and Lantus and Met. A1C from 10. something to 5.6. Pregnant after 8 years of grieving and arguing with God over infertility. Pregnancy cravings and exhaustion led to higher carb amount. Family pressures, mom with cancer, stress from ice storm all together resulted in backslide and 60lb pregnancy gain!!! C-section, NICU, recover, loss of dear friend who was to mw my birth (resulting in transfer and hosp horrors) finding out Mom was probably dying of triple negatie breast cancer, subsequent rollercoaster, husband unable to find job, family persecution, birth post traumatic stress and guilt, long complicated recovery: STRESS STRESS GRIEF GRIEF STRESS STRESS GRIEF

I have Ellie. My bG has been in the 200's. I have been killing myself. Relied on carbs and sugar to deaden me to the pain just like a drug because that is how it affects our bodies when we are diabetic, drwoning in a sugar coma. Examined myself about a 6 weeks ago, prayed, journaled, cried my heart out. Forgave myself, Forgave others, Forgave God. New me.

I have Ellie now. She just turned 6 months. I want to be fit and healthy for her and Jason and me.

Have lowered my bG to avg of 125. Lost from 155 to 137 over 6 weeks. Husband on low carb also, has lost 15 lbs of dangerous belly fat and is much happier and energetic and creative.

Backsliding

So after losing 8lbs and doing/feeling great I am at Mom's helping her recover while J is in NYC. I have eaten: 2 saltwater taffys,3 slices poppy seed iced bread, 2 slices of prune cake, a slice of raisin pie with 1 scoop vanilla ice cream, and a bite of toast.... yesterday it was 4 saltwater taffys, 1c of caramel corn, 2 forkfuls of raisin pie, tiny sliver of prune cake, 3 shredded wheats. Typing it out it looks so very DISGUSTING. Stress makes me eat. I pray I can stop here and not go on with this. It is hard to eat low carb when bored/stressed/worried and there is a kitchen stocked with high carb food!!! Everything low carb J and I brought in with us. Their entire house is high carb junk...... Help me! It is also hard to eat low carb without J as a support system going along with me......

Almost 1 week in to low carbing!

I started again last Tuesday at 152lb and avg bg of 150's. I now weigh 144.2 with avg bg of 110! I am also using half the insulin. I feel so great. Jason is doing this with me and has lost 6lb so far. More to write about but i will have to edit it in as I must go get Ellie.....

No progress just backwards

Now I am at 249lbs..... 10lbs off pregnancy weight and I look like I am due any minute. The stress of my mom's illness and my life and adjusting to it all has made me not care about me. Today is the first day shopping and seeing full length mirrors. GOOD GRIEF!!!

What food on earth is better than having the energy and fitness to fully enjoy each day with my daughter and husband???? I know the tools. My last post was on April 18th, roughly 10 weeks ago. I could be at under 200lbs right now and enoying my old clothes and the summer..... what have I done? If I keep thsi up I will be dead.

Hmmm...About that illness of last post

It was a baby!!

After 9 years of marriage and 7 years of trying we were finally pregnant. That little girl was born Feb 24 and has her own blog.

Almost another full year. I am now 239lbs and miserable. Tuesday it will be 8 weeks since her birth. I weighed 262 days he was born. I was at 131 a week ago but carb cravings have really hit with all the stress and sleep deprivation. And I only have 3 hours with my hands free per day and there is so much to do.... shower, wash dishes, sweep, cook, put things away, laundry, exercise, Bible reading, catch up with friends and family, help Jason with his art career, and of course I would like to relax a bit sometime! I have to choose between those things each day and most days not all of them get done. Just like all moms! And I have been healing from a traumatic birth, surgery and a week in the NICU.

I am finally feeling a bit more like myself and now notice the flab and rolls and thunder thighs and that I would have much more energy if I was fitter! My diabetes control is terrible. It has been averaging 150!!!! I take 20u of Lantus and 10-15u of Novolog per meal. YOUCH! The insulin makes me fatter also. I dont want to raise Ellie to suspect I have body image issues and worse to not be fit enough to be all I can be and do with and for her.

But I am battling the carb addiction again as well as wondering just how many I can cut without affecting my milk supply as I am exclusively breastfeeding. How low can I go when sudden changes in diet affect milk supply is the common truth? Can simply limiting my carb intake to 12-20-20 make enough of a differance in my diaetes, health and most important to me right now- weight as it is combined with breastfeeding and as much exercise as I can cram in? We will see if I can find the gumption to do so... I am so tierd all the time that I boost my energy with sugar or I would ever make it through the day.

I DON"T WANT TO KEEP LOOKING LIKE THIS PHOTO OR WORSE!

I want to look like I did back the first week of June last year

Update

I'm still here! I'm still here! This illness has knocked me on my behind but I am finally able to workout again tomorrow. Woohoo! Haven't fallen of the wagon, actually J and I have found ourselves thoroughly rooted in it, due to our increasing health and fitness. And it is with a united front we will face southern tradition and cuisine next week and for 19 days thereafter.

I am armed with truth, conviction, results, products (a low carb toolkit to take of: almond flour, pro powder, fiber fit, 85% cocoa bars,coconut oil, lavash, hunts jello cups, and stevia) oh and black soybeans to create my fav dish Dad's chili!

I will tell you, J cracks me up piling bacon and hotdogs or stack of burgers and cheese onto a tiny piece of lavash or lettuce leaves! This man LOVES meat and the freedom to enjoy gobs of butter and cream. I LOVE it! His tastes have changed like mine and he recognizes how bad the carb foods make him feel. Sugar tastes to sweet, bread feels awful in the mouth, etc etc. He has even taken notice of how his body feels after ingesting his fav 'health food' fresh juiced carrots and apples and rarely partakes or even wants it bought. He is even eating my pro powder, cream, ricotta cheese, flax breakfast 'gruel' his fav is with lemon added, it tastes like a lemon cream pie or something. So our house is full of joy and health and freedom from addictions!

So unlike last time, I may be quiet for a bit, esp with Leave and moving coming up, but I am still here rooting for and thinking of all of you!

Oh, nearly forgot...where has my bG been? Well I am still on 3u Lantus AM and PM and 1/2u Novolog at breakfast, and 1u of N at lunch and dinner, and the three Met, 1 chromium, 1 Vit D, and my multi vitamin. Despite the illness I have been able to keep bG in the 90's. Today it has started to drop to low so I am going to back off the Lantus a unit tomorrow AM as I think my body is almost healed from sickness. And this morning I weighed 205.6! Smallest I have been since Sept 2004!

Much love to you all!

Success!

Finally accepted it! And I am also down to 3u Lantus AM/PM! WOW! My workouts, the 30 minutes of Gilad and 45 minutes or so of walking burn about 364 calories a day. I am eating 1400 calories, 8-12-12 carbs, 80gish protein, with 72% of the diet being fat. I have lost just shy of 3lb in 4 days.

I hear many people, almost daily, say that this is a high protein diet. It is not it is high fat (this is our energy), low carb, and moderate protein.

TIP FOR THE DAY:
How do I know all of this so handily? I use FitDay
a free online program that lets you keep track of diet, nutrition information, weight changes, activities, a journal, and tracks them in graphed reports! This really keeps me on track and shows my progress, very encouraging. I use it to calculate the nutrition info of a meal or individual food. And if I take an empty log from the next day I can compile all the ingredients to a recipe and calculate that info as well. It also allows you to enter custom foods, so if you eat the same combos frequently, or create a new recipe you can log them in or add unusual items that are not already on the list.

Is This Success?

Working backwards today:
87,76,72,76,78,83,86,86,68,83fbg

I checked frequently because we took a long walk, washed/waxed the jeep, etc. and it was just a smidge low, I prefer 83.

This is on 30m weightlifting/calisthenics and 20-40 minutes walking a day.
Very close to 6-12-12, meals 4-5hours apart
4u Lantus AM and PM and 1u Novolog before each meal
1) 500mg Met at each meal

I am reducing the Lantus dose for tonight and in the morning to 3u.... and see what happens, if my fBg is good then I will try 1/2u Novolog before each meal.

This looks good to me. But I wonder if I should be trying to regulate without the Novolog at all. My intention is to closely mimic what my body is supposed to be doing as possible. Seems, in the back of my head, like it is 'cheating' to use the Novolog and I should change something else instead of using it pre-meal. But I think lowering my basal insulin of Lantus, according to everything I have read, would be the best. Part of me doubts that I understand it all correctly. Maybe I just can't believe I have temporarily arrived at where I need to be

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