I see that profile shot of myself and I don't recognize me. Where have I gone? I am such a new person so much physical pain as well as fear and loss and dissapointment behind me and to go with it 60lbs of weight weighing me down, dragging me down drowning me as the grief slowly subsides the pain has left its more lasting evidence in pounds I want to shed them like a cocoon I want to find the real Star the healthy, vibrant, energetic, happy, ready for anything Star.